Choking

A dear friend of mine told me recently that some of my thoughts and words were choking our relationship. As those words were pouring into my ears and filtering down into my brain I couldn't really understand what she was saying. I could see her mouth moving, and the sounds vibrating off my inner ear could almost be made out to be English. But nothing sunk in. Not one single word or thought she tried to convey made a dent in on my mind. Not until today, that is. I've been sitting here today thinking about all the things going on in my life. I have so much crap stacked up on the tarmac waiting to launch that if they were all to explode at once the color brown would become my new mental wallpaper. To say that I feel like I'm choking is an absolute understatement.