Will I?

And so I ask myself today, "Will I be able to be this man again?" It feels like it's time to find out.

In the last few years so many people have come in and out of my life. I have met so many new people that it hardly seems logical that I knew so many before. But if I am honest with myself I have to admit that I have kept most at an arms length. The old life I walked away from bore old pains and convinced me there was only one life really worth fighting for, and that was my own. But time goes by and the heart heals itself, and so then the pains go away and I find myself longing for the things that I once enjoyed about my old life...the laughter of children, holding hands, and whispering about it all to someone who's mind and soul are connected with mine.

Today I am going to find out. I am taking a giant step forward to see if this old heart of mine is ready to beat inside that man again.

-JF