Outside the Circle

Just a couple more days now. Can I say anymore prayers that will be sure to get me on that plane? Everything is set as far as I can tell. I've got the papers in, the bags are packed, my mind is wrapped around it, etc. So why the hell am I so scared?

I can't handle another set back I guess. I'm starting to see the man everyone else sees, the one that's talked about going for over a year now but is still here. I left my Idaho life partly because I couldn't look it in the eye anymore. The circle of people that don't judge me is very small indeed, and I don't think that I'm in it.

So send me the ticket already. Put a gun in my hand and let me feel the hot sun of the Arabian desert on my neck. I will smile and be so thankful for the first mouthful of sand I taste. Focus Jim, just stay focused.

-JF